SONNET LXXV - TRAGEDY

so many nights I laid awake and cried
I sat around and waited for your call
as all the love inside me slowly died
and now I don't feel anything at all
you've proven true my deepest, darkest fear
and though I tried so hard to never see
the tragedy of you and I is clear:
you've better things to do than be with me
I finally gave my foolish head a shake
I saw a truth that I could not ignore
why beg for scraps of love and cold heartache?
why waste my tears when I deserve much more?
   and now you're cold and lonely in the night
   when all you had to do was treat me right